Never in my life have I felt this way. I feel torn, broken, defeated. It’s all I think about, and it eats away at me. People are noticing that I’m not as happy as I once was. People can see that it’s killing me, and I’m falling apart before there eyes. It’s hurting my relationship with a guy I’m completely and utterly in love with, and that’s not fair, even for him. I just want to be happy again, and I’ll eventually be able to get over this…but for now, please don’t give up on me, not yet. Give me time to figure this out and get it out of my head, like you did. Let me get over this, so I can show you just how in love I am with you. Let me not feel defeated every single time this happens. I can’t bare to see you like this as a direct cause from my actions. One day I’ll be grown up enough to face my fears and deal with it face to face and always be able to talk; for now though, please know it’s going to be baby step…. I just hope you have enough patience for me…….